Day 16 here and last night I felt ‘da drain… After an emotional night on Sunday and having to admit my daughter to a residential crisis unit and not sleeping much – after work I felt very drained of energy and motivation. My usual witching hour is when I get home from work and my new practice now is to get home and get busy – but it’s hard to do when you’re tired.
So what did I do?! Well I pushed myself to do a workout. I knew that even though I didn’t feel like it, I would feel better for doing it after and I did!! I’ve been for the first time in my life probably following a program faithfully for 6 weeks (well the first couple of weeks weren’t great but I’m going strong now and I attribute it to my sober status).
When we stop drinking, it’s like we have all this time on our hands to do things that we always put off or talked about while drinking. DOING is much better than talking that’s for sure!! Now of course I also have been trying to replace ‘da drink with healthy alternatives and have found a few that I enjoy. I love the Flat Belly Sassy Water recipe. We finally have LaCroix water here in Canada (which is free of any additives – basically just sparkling water with varied natural flavouring). Right now we don’t have all the flavours most have but I love the plain one and I mix it with Crystal Light Strawberry/Lemonade liquid mix – YUMM!! It’s like my pretend cooler. I love my bubbles and really trying to cut down on the diet Pepsi I drink. It was my mix of choice with my Vodka Lime so now I will allow myself a treat every now and again of diet Pepsi with fresh squeezed lime in it but truthfully hope to cut out the soda once and for all one day too (but alas – one vice at a time and the booze was the most important one to kick).
I’m also exploring making healthy drinks – like green smoothies, protein drinks, etc. Kicking this habit has fine tuned my desire to be healthy in every respect – like I want to heal my body so trying to eat foods that are good for me, trying to get away from processed stuff and now with the extra time – exploring making new healthy recipes from scratch more often.
So the alternatives to ‘da Booze are much better for me in so many ways! I think that had I not been sober when this family crisis happened I would have fallen apart – but instead it’s like ‘bring it on’… I’m going to meet and beat these challenges (both the 100 day challenge and my own family trials and tribulations). This too shall pass and I appreciate all the lessons being brought my way … as hard as they may be. I will focus on the GOOD things in my life, count my blessings and smile in the face of adversity (or Wolfie – who even comes to visit in my dreams and makes me think I want a drink lol).