Day 23 done here… but today was tougher. I’m not sure exactly why – but it just was. I think it’s because I’m exhausted trying to keep it together with all the drama on the homefront and a few extra irritations – making way to leave the door open for Wolfie to enter my mind. On the bus ride home, saw the ads for summer drinks and thought – with my daughter going away and knowing I won’t have any issues come up – it sure would be nice to just enjoy a drink. BUT that would mean starting back at day 1 and I know that would sooo bum me out.
This quote spoke to me today “Do not be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson” … It’s like wolfie is the problem pusher and so long as I keep my eye and focus on the dreams I want to achieve I can keep him at bay.
I knew he’d come out at some point and I guess I am grateful that he didn’t come sooner because 23 days in, I am a bit stronger and have more resistance than if I were just at day 1 or 2.
Tomorrow’s a new day and I’m going to turn in soon, still riding the sober car!
Not settling for that call from Wolfie tonight… because I know I deserve a much better calling – a brighter and healthier life!