Well after my post yesterday, I am here fessing up. I caved – after a really good day – 2 walks – over 5 miles walked, a 30 mins strength training workout and swim in the pool – I ended up picking up drinks with my gf and we indulged. This meant it flowed into today as I have now ‘finished’ what was left.
My plan is now to get back to the sober car – and as I stated yesterday – at least until my bday.
How am I feeling today? Well – I’m not hung over major, but I am disappointed that I caved – but I have to let go of that feeling or it will bring about more thoughts about – what the hell, I fucked up already, may as well keep the ball going. That’s the dangerous part – the whole self-talk that goes on in my head. Getting that first day in again is always the hardest but I am not giving up. It starts now. Tomorrow I will wake up to a sober day.
I’m going to stay logged on here or on soberistas to stay strong – and may just go back to bed for a while – to make it feel like the day is beginning again.
I will never give up this fight – to make myself a better person. I’m worth it and I’m grateful to all who follow and support my semi-sober journey to date.