I had a rotten weekend and waking up to my birthday today – realize that moderation is NOT an option for me. Once I have that first drink, it’s like I can’t get enough and waking up this morning, I realize that I’m done WASTING my life away with booze.
May today be my last day 1 AF ever and may I seek all the help and support I need to keep me on the path of sobriety. May I prove to myself most of all that I can do this – for me and for my children so that we can live a better life.
I was hit this weekend with just how I am letting life pass me by as I sit and sulk in a depressed state of mind, brought on by my indulgence in ‘the voice’ that called me out on Friday and stayed with me until yesterday. I’m waking up this morning and praying for strength to keep me on path to true sobriety.
Lose 'da Booze 
Happy Birthday. We are here to help in anyway we can! xoxo
I thought I posted a comment earlier, but apparently not. First of all, Happy Birthday! And second of all, you know we are always here for you. Call, email, text…whatever you need.
happy birthday!
we are here to support you, day by day step by step, it takes focusing on other things to get you back to your goals. I believe in you. WE stop we start, we stop we start, ah it is a challenge.
bizi
Happy Birthday! You can do it. This is a wonderful gift you are giving yourself.
Happy birthday AND happy last 1st day! I am only on day two so I truly feel your pain. Getting sober ain’t for sissies! We can make this happen. Xoxox
Cheryl m
Happy Birthday! And big *hugs*
I have been right where you are, so many times – in fact selfishly posts like yours help remind me why I’m not drinking even when Wolfie calls to me – Day 1s really suck.
BUT, don’t beat yourself up too much, try instead to get back into a self care, self loving mindset to start over and make it stick. Do you listen to the Bubble Hour podcast? They talk about ‘filling your bubble’ with those things that can help you quit — like nice AF drinks, bubble baths, podcasts, blogs, books, movies etc — while you’re tucked away for a bit in your little sober bubble. Stock up on all those things now and dig in and know that you really can do it. Just keep trying and you will get there.
And as I always try and remind people, because it’s helped me so much, it’s great to take the time to really get down on paper (or blog) why drinking sucked and why you want to quit when you’re deep in the Day One misery. Do it NOW while it’s fresh. Then, when Wolfie comes a’calling in few days or weeks saying ‘you can moderate’ ‘you’re not that bad’ ‘just have one’ you’ll have a clear reminder from the one who knows best how drinking really makes you feel and act.
I am exactly the same re the ‘one drink and I just can’t get enough’ (and then I’m left miserable) and increasingly I deeply believe that for people like us complete abstinence is the only answer – and trying to embrace it happily at that. God how I wish it weren’t so but it is what it is so let’s make the best of it and change our lives for the better, hey?
You can do this and we’ve got your back.
xxo
Thank you so much Lily!! I have blogged about the negatives of the booze and how great I feel when I’m AF for a length of time. I need to print them or put them in a place where they are handy for the moments when the voice comes calling. I appreciate all of you so much!!