I took this pic of myself on Saturday March 15th, 2014… a day where I was feeling really GOOD about myself. There’s been this trend on Facebook about posting no makeup selfies… so I did this one… and then today, I posted it again and a friend told me ‘not fair – not a true selfie’ and I wondered why she would say that?!
In my own view and perspective – this is absolutely reflective of my natural self right now. Comfortable in my skin – despite my efforts to keep pushing to improve.
I managed to do 20 days AF and tonight I’m having drinks – even though I had committed to a full month AF… why? Well because it just felt right. It’s been an amazing month. I am having drinks tonight not because I’m stressed or trying to numb anything, but simply want to enjoy a few… I have not had any all month. I have not even watched TV all month… and tonight – I stopped at my gf and had drinks with her and then came home to find that I’d be alone for the evening… something that RARELY happens… peace.. both teen girls out…
I’m truly enjoying my moderate night – without worry of slipping into this ‘dark’ hole or battle again because I know that my priorities lie with my health goals. Plans for tomorrow to be back to AF … working out… going out and dancing and NO BOOZE!!
My true self is an ever changing person… I’m truly seeing and feeling a shift. I don’t have this desperate feel that if I have a drink I will spiral into a negative oblivion… those days are gone and only bright sunshine days are ahead!!
For reference – here’s another photo I’m super proud of … one taken at work on January 30th … I think I’m looking pretty darned healthy – and feeling it – mind/body and spirit!